Some Details

Now that you know what I am working with a bit. I'm hoping that you understand who I am and understand my personalities a little better. Understand why this is so important it is to be able to be myself and be free to express myself through this blog. 

When I was younger I was always loved and taken care of but, for some reason I never felt that way. (I know people are going to have their opinion about this and they can say what they would like. I already know what's coming and that is fine, but this is MY blog and I promised myself I'm going to be open and honest to you and to myself.) I just always felt a void so to speak. I mean in my head i knew I was loved but, the feeling didnt match. The older I got the more I felt that way. In secret I would cry and half the time I didn't even know why. I managed to keep this under keeps for a very long time. However, my family have told me of stories where I was younger and I would just start crying for no reason.

(1st sign of craziness...MAYBE?!?)

Naturally I started dating and I thought I could use that maybe to fill the void. Which it didnt. my then boyfriend/baby father he had saw this side of me and was very confused because he thought it was something he did when it had absolutely nothing to do with him at all. He continued to try and comfort me, which he couldn't. He tried to understand what was wrong, which he couldn't. He tried to get me to express the feelings and what it was exactly, which he couldn't.The reason being I didn't even know the answers to the questions he was asking for myself.

At this point I was just a confused little girl looking for "LOVE"

So I'm going to keep coming out strong with this...

 I know you might be reading this and thinking this is not the professional setting your use where they blog about fancy food, travel, fashion, etc. If that is what your looking for I'M but, your in the wrong place. Even though eventually may talk about these thing that's not what I want this to be. I want this to be kind of a place where we talk about everything. I want this to be the comfortable place where you come to get uplifted and know you are human just like me. A place where there is no judgement. Where the only expectations is for you to be yourself and be motivated. A place you come to see that your not the only one who goes through things. The world is not perfect and neither am I and assuming neither are you.