So what's really going on?

So now that I've introduced myself and told you about my blog, now it's time to give you the real details. The dirty truth, the "411", "all the TEA".


LoL... don't get too excited. I'm just going to tell you a little about me.

Once upon a time not long ago where people wore pajamas and live life slow... JK

Seriously though I'm a 27 year old who is born and raised in Paterson, NJ. A mother first (I have a 10 year boy and currently "BAKING" another one). For as long as I can remember I've always been a "sickly klutz".

Sickly- Always ill, unhealthy or in poor health

Klutz- A person who is never without a scrape or bruise. Always finds a way to trip,bump into things and people. (Not intentionally might I add)

As I've gotten older it's seems as if I've gotten worse. To the point I go to multiple specialist to try and understand what exactly is wrong. 


Guess what?... In my opinion nothing really I'm just a little crazy with a hint of brain damage. 

No but, really the major things I suffer from are Chronic Migraines and Bipolar Depression.

(Please be aware of side effects which may include but, are not limited to high-anxiety, OCD, insomnia, dehydration, partial blindness, stress, mood swings, selective hearing, sarcasm ...)


In the end I think I'm goofy, spontaneous, ambitious girl with a semi functioning life. Yes I have my days both physically and mentally where I feel like I dont want to get out of bed or i can't get out of bed. Then I have my days where im able to push through and  just make it. There are also those days where I'm on the up and I'm thanking GOD... usually after getting IV fluids in the middle of the night from the ER.

(Well I thank GOD that I wake up everyday but, I think you know what I mean.)

Even with everything that I endure I always remember that someone has it much worst than me and I'm happy to say that I woke up. No matter how ugly or crappy I may look or feel. Im try to remember to remain BEAUTIFUL inside and out. So here's to more sleepless night's, stressing thoughts, high-anxiety-filled days and head pounding migraines. (Those darn side effects... that annoying SARCASM!)

Until next time my SicklyBeautiful people


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