Learn your Limits!

Hey loves I know your probably wondering where I've been (or not...LOL). Either you can probably guess, yes I was sick... LMAO!

Unfortunately that's what this is about and why I'm doing this. There are going to be times where I disappear because I simply don't have the strength or I'm simply not in the headspace to produce the words. And im not going to pretend about it, because I would not be me. 

Eventually I want this to be so much more... which I think everyone wants when they start blogging. But, I NEVER want to lose the focus and/or the mission of me doing this from the beginning. 

Be HUMBLE and BEAUTIFUL no matter the circumstances!

So with that being said I have to be able to realize my limits. Which is something you learn, based off yourself. When your sickly person I feel it is one of the most important things you need to know as an individual. I mean some people just know there limits and some people learn them through good or bad experiences. 

Personally I learned it the hard way many times. I have been at work practically passing out, dehydrated, throwing up my life in the garbage pale at my desk and in the multi stall bathroom with people on both sides of me. I've have complete break downs, panic attacks where I have gotten myself together went back to work like nothing ever happened, then there were time's I had to leave and go straight to my doctor's office or the ER immediately. At the end of it all I'm able to say I learn something. I learned what I can handle and what I can't handle.

I know some might be like if I dont feel good i just don't go but, for someone that is always sick and that this could happen on a daily basis it's not that simple. If you want to keep your job you go in when you feel great and you go when you feel like SHIT. I mean think about it... you know if you don't go to work, you don't get paid, dont get paid you can't pay your bills or buy for food, which means you can't eat, you lose your house, car and/or any possessions you have. If you have children you take the chance of losing them too. Which is a risk I'm not willing to take for anyone.

This is another reason why creating this blog was so important to me. When you are sick person in a technical world it can be so damaging. Don't get me wrong I'm the Google queen and I over research. At the same time I know the research was not done on ME. I know what my body can do and can't do because of experience in combination of my knowledge and acceptance of my conditions. (That's another conversation for another time) With having this information I'm able to differentiate between me not being the simplest decisions and being able to even make a logical decisions. At the end of it all I'm living and learning which I hope you are too.

Until next time my sickly beautiful people😙😙